Isaiah is becoming a new favorite, namely, chapters 40-42. Every time I read them, God shows me something new through those powerful sections. Today was no different.
I realized this morning, when I reread those chapters, that I didn't completely comprehend who God was, despite saying that I know Him for so long. To clarify - I've been a Christian for most of my life. I've gone to church my whole life. I've always been close to Christianity - lately, however, it's becoming more of a personal thing, which is great. It's what it's supposed to be.
It's also difficult, though. Part of making faith your own is discovering who God is to you. And this morning, I realized that I truly do not know.
Of course, it's impossible to have any real comprehension of who God is. He is too great and powerful for human comprehension. But I've lost sight of who he is to me. I say He's powerful and great, but do I really mean that?
Sometimes actions speak louder than words, and when I spend my time worrying about homework or college or conflict with others, am I really trusting Him? Is that really showing that I believe that He is bigger and stronger than all that?
Truth be told, worrying is just a sign that I'm not trusting God enough. I make excuses for it a lot: "I'm trying to worry, it's just how I am!" or "My life is crazy and stressful, I can't help being worried!" That's also wrong. What I have is a lack of trust. And how can that trust be found?
I honestly think that by seeking God, by trying to discover who He is, and how great His strength is, I will be able to more willingly place my trust in Him. If I truly believe that He is all-powerful, why would I not trust Him? If He is greater than my problems and greater than my fears, why should I worry?
I'm going to close today with some wonderful verses from Isaiah, that drive this point home. I'm also dedicating this next week or so to memorizing them, because these are words that I need to have in my heart.
"Do you not know? Have you not heard? Has it not been told you from the beginning? Have you not understood since the earth was founded? He sits enthroned above the circle of the earth, its people are like grasshoppers. He stretches out the heavens like a canopy, and spreads them out like a tent to live in. He brings princes to naught, and reduces the rulers of this world to nothing. No sooner are they planted, no sooner are they sown, no sooner do they take root in the ground, than he blows on them and they wither, and a whirlwinds sweeps them away like chaff. "To whom will you compare me? Or who is my equal?" says the Holy One. Lift your eyes and look to the heavens: Who created all these? He who brings out the starry host one by one, and calls them each by name. Because of his great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing."